I am happy to report that I am officially signed up for the Foster Care Training. I start the training in about two weeks (Sept. 28th.) and I am excited and also a little nervous.
If you know me well, you know that I can become very shy in group settings. So taking a six week training class on my own is a big step for me. The good thing is that Brent and Sarah want to get re-certified so they will be attending one of the six training classes and it just so happens that it will be my first class that they attend. So that will help me...big time!!
There isn't a day that goes by where I haven't thought about this upcoming life change. Everyday I feel a different emotion. Excitement. Fear. Happiness. Worry. Eagerness. Nervousness. Excitement. Fear.
I'm excited about helping and loving helpless babies. I'm excited about having a purpose in life. I'm excited about shopping for baby clothes and toys. I'm excited about getting to hold babies all the time. I'm excited to see what God does in my life and how He will work through me. And I'm excited about doing what God has called me to do.
I'm nervous about the training class and the homestudy. I'm nervous about how much my life is going to change. I'm nervous about the lack of sleep I will have. I'm nervous about how this will affect my social life and dating. I'm nervous about how I am going to manage a full time job and the responsibilities of a single parent. And I'm scared of the pain I know I will feel when I have to give the precious babies back.
I know that when I start to feel these fears and doubts that I need to remind myself that this is what God has called me to do and that it will all be worth it.
I hope that, you (my friends and family), will continue to pray for me as I begin this journey.
"My life is not my own. We only have so much time on this earth. But each of us has a literally INFINITE capacity to demonstrate love. Love is a choice. Loving recklessly is a gift." -Brannon
